Currently in western society I feel as though we’re under the impression that natural instincts are something that has far more to do with animals than humans. Animals that are perceived to have a lesser consciousness. When really its humans who are coming out looking stupid as we have so much more awareness available to us than just that of our thinking mind. It requires patience and stillness to hear, understand and master but once achieved the experience of life is taken to whole new level.
The intelligence of the body astounds me. It sends us signals constantly only most of us don’t know how to pay attention, don’t know what they mean or just choose to ignore them. “Gut feelings? But what about reason and rationality?!” Says the ego mind. But some things simply can’t be explained by typical “reason and rationality”, For example this past week or so I’ve been battling a wrist and hamstring injury. There was no specific moment that I injured them. I did not do anything out of the ordinary. Just my normal yoga practice everyday. So why all of a sudden have my wrist and at first hip then hamstring become inflamed?
Is it pure coincidence or the true explanation to discuss the fact that this week we have a powerful solar eclipse occurring at the new moon… Eclipses are a powerful time for the release of skewed perceptions and bad habits and new moons are the best time for setting new intentions and surrendering to your true path.
The past few weeks I have felt some resistance in moving ahead and have even had some old behaviour patterns rear their ugly heads – I now can see it that that was in fact necessary so i could once and for all stop romanticising who I once wished to be and see these patterns and habits in the new light of my awakened self; See them for what they truly are, how they are not a part of me and have challenged me to go deeper into myself and clear out any remaining debris from my subconscious in terms of past fears, losses and pain that I was reluctant to let go.
“This eclipse occurs on Aquarius/Leo axis… In Aquarius we are asked to release who we thought we were in our social groups and adjust our goals, ideal vision of who we are and what life is ‘about’. The north node (Rahu) is in Leo, the sign of Shining Self, sovereignty and leadership. This Solar eclipse foreshadows a reassesment of who we are and how we are running our Kingdom. ” – Asha Maria ; TheExistentialAstrologer .
This is very much on par with what I have been experiencing as of late and I found it very interesting that the right wrist is all about how you hold yourself, the role you play and how you are viewed by society. So no wonder my wrist has been aching as I’m releasing my attachment once again to the person I used to want to be, the path I used to want to follow and accepting that that path no longer serves my highest good, it is no longer for me. Which bring up the fear of “If I’m not that who am I?” Which is the wonderful thing about the leo aspect; Kings and queens of the jungle. We can feel strong standing in our truth, owning our power by walking our talk, and just allowing ourselves to BE. And finding strength and support by being vulnerable enough to surrender to the truest version of ourselves and fearing not that we are unsure of the path in front of us but feeling excited because we are no longer bound by pointless habits and tribulations for we are free!
As for my hip and hamstring; Your hips hold the tension of unprocessed emotions. During a yoga practice I felt a large release in my IT band and after that I felt like I was getting my flow back, on the mat and off. Then my hamstring started to pull. I realised it was because of those old patterns resurfacing; an old injury was resurfacing. I was treating myself in a similar way to how I did when I was training to be a dancer and I would tear my hamstring over and over again and basically ignore it and try to push it further out of fear of being held back, fear of not being good enough. I was again processing those similar emotions. But this time with loving kindness by the end of it. Just going gently and quietly listening to what my body needs and that is revealing deeper layers of how I can be kind to my mind and my heart. Things that for many many years I sorely neglected.
At this time I am grateful for the wisdom I’ve gained, I’m grateful for the challenges as eventually they will help others overcome similar challenges as well as push me forward. I’m looking forward to setting some spectacular new intentions this new moon and for the first time in my life not being afraid of a solar eclipse! Also very thankful for the beautiful and wise words of Asha Maria, always providing timely comfort and clarity ❤